I hate 10.5hours working shift of standing in an air-conditioned store with customers only browsing through. I just hate air conditioners actually. For now. I'm applying a second PT job after completing my resume that I've been procrastinating since November. I like to talk about work.I like sales,especially when we hit target. I'm thirsty these days, very very thirsty. I hate red monthsaries.

Bold the things that apply to you.

My shortest relationship was a month.

I’ve had a few short-term boyfriends.

I’ve been given flowers.

I’ve been given chocolate.

I’ve been given shoes/clothes.

I’ve been given jewelry.

I’ve been kissed in the rain.

I’ve been kissed under the stars.

I’ve been kissed on a roller coaster.

I’ve been kissed in a pool.

I’ve been kissed underwater.

I’ve been kissed while I was driving.

I’ve been kissed while I was asleep.

I’ve been kissed in a bus.

I’ve been kissed while laying in the grass.

I’ve been on a date.

I’ve been on a group date.

I’ve taken a nap with a guy.

I’ve made out in a closet.

I’ve made out with just a friend.

I’ve made out with a member of the same sex.

I’ve played some sort of kissing game.

I’ve been asked out in person.

I’ve been asked out online.

I’ve been asked out over the phone.

I’ve been asked out on Valentine’s Day.

A guy has cooked for me.

A guy has written me a poem.

A guy has sang for me.

A guy has played guitar for me.

A guy has carried me.

A guy has given me a piggy back ride.

I’ve cuddled with a guy whom I wasn’t dating.

I’ve been kissed on the lips.

I’ve been kissed on the neck.

I’ve been kissed on the stomach.

I’ve been kissed on the nose.

I’ve been kissed on the top of the head.

I’ve been kissed on the hand.

I’ve been kissed on the feet.

I’ve received a hickey.

I’ve given a hickey.

I’ve been in love.

I’ve been in lust.

I’ve confessed to a crush.

A crush has confessed to me.

I’ve been in a love triangle.

I’ve been on a date to the movies.

I’ve been on a date to a restaurant.

I’ve been on a date to an arcade.

I’ve had a crush on a member of the same sex before.

I’ve been felt up in public.

I’ve been cheated on.

I’ve had feelings for somebody else when I was already taken.

A friend has dated my ex.

I’m still friends with my ex(s).

I celebrate anniversaries.

I celebrate monthsaries.

I’ve never been given a promise ring.

A guy has promised me forever.

If I have a boyfriend, I give him nicknames.

I used to fall for my best friend.

A guy has given me a foot massage.

A guy has rubbed my shoulders.

I like holding hands in public.

A guy has tried to take me away from my boyfriend.

I’ve cooked/baked for a guy.

I’ve stayed up late talking to a guy I had feelings for.

I haven’t had a sleepover with the opposite sex.

I’ve led a guy on.

I’ve knowingly teased a guy.

I’ve been in the same class as a boyfriend.

I’ve never been in a long distance relationship.

and now there's you understanding why I do the things I do
knowing that you do them too makes me really happy

These days.....

It's either I'm home, or work, or on someone's laptop with no wireless internet,
watching downloaded movies because all Singaporeans secretly wish that everything
is free and at the same time,each individual having
at least a thousand pounds in their savings account.

Yeah. Oh, just in case if you're wondering.

The lower layer of my hair is still golden/brown-ish.
The upper -used to be blonde+ash+pink part is currently medium mahogany with violet effects with a slight touch of a streak of violet-ish blonde.
I don't know how to explain. :/

I'm so sleepy.
&I'm sorry Naf that I blew you out last week,I thought I'd had a day to just chillax with you.Anyways, I doubt you'd be reading this anyways. Insya'Allah this coming week...or perhaps next month, Sorry dear. :(

Aku manusia lemah
Selalu terjatuh
Berbeda aku darimu
Kau berdiri teguh
Aku serba tiada
Aku kekurangan
Dan bila kau tiba aku hilang dari kewujudan

Sempurnanya sifatmu
Tulusnya hatimu
Jujurnya niatmu
Tingginya kesbaranmu
Lepaskanlah diriku
Kerna aku tak mampu tuk
menanggung sebuah cinta sempurna

Bukan aku tak pernah
Mengerti dirmu
ku sanjung setiap kata cinta kau berikan aku
Hilangkan rasa itu
Akhirkankan semua
Dan bila kau sedar
Aku hilang dari kewujudan

Goodbye blonde hair. :):):):):)
& John Legend+Coldplay=S.E.X

I really can't wait to change my hair color.
Or/and watch Avatar on somebody's laptop.
Plus pay day.
I think twentyten began on the wrong note in every way.
I plan to change it.
Hello, how about a two seater bicycle ride? :)

♥

Honestly I don't know what is going on in my head. I seek refuge to myself by working and thinking about work as much as possible and block out all those heartfelt emotions i've had and having to escape from the reality.I can't run that long,I know.
I'm so mentally and emotionally drained,I can't make my mood on a higher hue. I don't know how to help myself either.

I want to rewind to primary five, or fast forward to 23.
I apologise for all that I've done to anyone and myself.

Yesterday was something,today was something else.
Alot of shits been reoccuring, yet I'm still living.
I finally get to hang out with my loved ones but only in a short period.

Monday was my results.
-It was _ _ _ _ _ _ _ :)

Tuesday was my hair show.
-Pictures shall be uploaded as soon as it arrives.
-the DJ had a nice hair.
-apparently my current hair color is blonde+pink+ash purple+ orange.
-heels killls
-Donald(stylist) invited me to the after party at Butterfactory with all the hair dressers and models.

Unfortunately....

Wednesday (later)
-full shift at VVC. :(

Thursday
-Off day.
-Nisa is coming over
-doing our application of JAE

Friday
-closing at STC

Saturday
-full shift at VVC

Sunday
-is a mystery.

i ♥ sleep. Clearly,I'm deprived of it.

17

If you're wondering, my birthday wasn't much of a blast.
Spent almost the whole day working and not at home. None of my family members got to wish me until I reached home at 11ish which also means my day was minutes away till coming to an end.
I'm going through some tough love emotional wreck with everything and I get super sensitive even by a mere sentence of "oh you're gonna eat again?" -it will tick me off so badly, I can swear the living hell of your mother.
You get the picture?

Apparently,I was "surprised" with a mini pandan-cream cake with spongebob and tweety bird on it. -Courtesy of beloved Granny who chose it. And they actually bought the cake like before I even started work,since yesternight was spend counting down my sour seventeen at yishun,getting myself individual home-made pizzas by Sid,Kak Ain and Malek's.

Good things really do come to an end.
I feel like everyone left me at 2009,struggling to keep up.
Hi,I'm seventeen now. In another decade,I'll be my favourite number age.
With love.

Goodbye 2009,Ohyah, hello 2010.
So as you all know about my hair.
Here's the outlook. and no,it's not entirely done yet.
And yes, I feel that I have that androgynous look now.
Oh God,give me mercy,

It's not done yet!
Anyways,
♥ you,Suqiman. :)
There,I said it.